Cause that's the best thing I can think of to start this. There have been a ton of things going on in my life the last couple of weeks. But nothing I'm going to sit here and share. Which is odd. Normally I'm all about sharing my experiences. Minus the couple of stupid arguments, it's been all so far beyond go I don't know how to describe it.
As planned, 2011 has been a big year. And continues to move in that direction. The housing situation has pretty much fully resolved itself. I knew that was going to take some time. I'm still in a holding pattern for a bit longer, but may finally be within my reach.
I've made hugely positive changes in my life. I've eliminated the people that create drama. I've been supportive of friends, and tried to be a good friend to the people I care about, but have also started looking out for myself. And that never happened before.
I'm not stressed anymore. Well, not like I used to be. I'm happy. And I credit a large part of that happiness to a great woman. Her smile and attitude have had a large impact on me. I can't help but smile her when I see her. And we've been spending a lot of our free time together. And for the first time in a long time, I see a future with this girl. And she sees something very similar. While the whole situation may be complicated, and not something I ever saw myself in, I have a good feeling it's all going to work out just fine.
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Thursday, August 4, 2011
An amazing feeling
So many of my friends have talked to me in the past about knowing when they met "the one." And I've always written those conversations off as great stories but just not practical to the real world anymore. Well in recent months those thoughts have changed.
It's been awhile since I met her. Easily 8 months. I'd noticed her from afar for a long time. And finally I grew the balls necessary to strike up a conversation. Since then it's been nothing but good times. We've hung out a fair amount. Had a ton of serious conversations. Had more stupid and silly ones. There are so many things I could say about this girl that are amazing. But most importantly to me right now is the way she makes me feel. I can honestly say I've never felt this good. Or this happy. She's a damn amazing woman. And if this is the feeling you were all talking about before, you should have described it as such. There's nothing I won't do to spend time with her. There's nothing I won't do to keep this feeling alive.
She knows who she is. She knows I'm crazy about her. And every day that I am lucky enough to know her I'm going to treat her as amazingly as she's treated me.
It's been awhile since I met her. Easily 8 months. I'd noticed her from afar for a long time. And finally I grew the balls necessary to strike up a conversation. Since then it's been nothing but good times. We've hung out a fair amount. Had a ton of serious conversations. Had more stupid and silly ones. There are so many things I could say about this girl that are amazing. But most importantly to me right now is the way she makes me feel. I can honestly say I've never felt this good. Or this happy. She's a damn amazing woman. And if this is the feeling you were all talking about before, you should have described it as such. There's nothing I won't do to spend time with her. There's nothing I won't do to keep this feeling alive.
She knows who she is. She knows I'm crazy about her. And every day that I am lucky enough to know her I'm going to treat her as amazingly as she's treated me.
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Jealousy
So since I'm not a jealous person by nature, I would really like someone to explain to me what the hell would cause a normal person to flip out over something simple. I have my own hang ups about really various stuff, but you can't try and control someones every actions and imagine that they'll respect you. I'm insecure, but being an asshole just because of that insecurity has never crossed my mind. I just don't get it, and I see it all the time. So please, someone please explain...
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
A simple smile.
It is absolutely amazing how just a simple smile can actually change your day. With the way everything has been going for me lately, I can't help but have great days. I really and honestly love my life. That being said, it's not without it's bad moments. Nothing major, just annoyances or irritations. But there has been a pretty constant smile in my days.
To those of you who I talk to that are smiling, happy people... thank you. I am often surrounded by idiots and negative people. I understand how crappy getting up in the morning is. But I don't walk into work set on being an asshole to people just cause I'm up. And I'll admit there's been this one infectious smile recently. Every time I see it, I can't help but smile bigger. And I can't get enough of that feeling. I hope more than anything at this point that it never goes away. And I intend to do my best to pass that feeling along to as many other people as possible. So get ready, it's time for a big group smile.
To those of you who I talk to that are smiling, happy people... thank you. I am often surrounded by idiots and negative people. I understand how crappy getting up in the morning is. But I don't walk into work set on being an asshole to people just cause I'm up. And I'll admit there's been this one infectious smile recently. Every time I see it, I can't help but smile bigger. And I can't get enough of that feeling. I hope more than anything at this point that it never goes away. And I intend to do my best to pass that feeling along to as many other people as possible. So get ready, it's time for a big group smile.
Friday, July 1, 2011
Summer breeze
I've been luck this year and I've actually been able to enjoy our summer hours. Last year was kind of a modified work week so I didn't get to take full advantage. I'll tell you what's been awesome about getting out of work at noon every Friday for the last month or so and what I'm looking forward to enjoying for the rest of the summer.
1. Day drinking while other friends are still at work. There's been something satisfying about getting a beer (or 3) with lunch knowing others can't. Though I haven't had any in the last 3 weeks. But once I get closer to the goal weight I'll get back to having some fun.
2. Lunch with a good looking girl. I've been getting closer to this girl recently. It seems like we're becoming pretty decent friends. I enjoy her company a lot. She's always in a good mood, she smiles a ton. And that makes me smile. We've spent the last few Fridays sitting and talking over lunch or while we're just walking around. It's been a blast getting to know her, hope it continues for a long time to come.
3. Shopping. I enjoy shopping, though not just for the fuck of it. I don't have any problem going to the mall, unless I'm just going to wander around. My version of shopping is easy. Get in with a game plan. Buy or not buy depending on what I find. Leave. It's easy. I won't go wander around aimlessly just looking at stuff.
4. Getting everything done before the weekend starts. I know technically it started at 12:00 when I punched out, but it feels like a freebie. So far I've been able to get all of the stupid running around done before 5 on Friday that I would have done on Saturday. Which leaves my weekends wide open to nothing but pure fun. And there's typically less people out on Friday so I don't have to deal with nearly as many stupid people.
5. The beach. Nothing says fun like killing a few hours in the sand and water. And getting out there before it gets crowed is a huge plus.
And so far on the agenda for the rest of the summer's Fridays. Cookouts, lunches with friends, trips out of town and a ton of various fun. So bring it on summer, I'm already ready already!!
1. Day drinking while other friends are still at work. There's been something satisfying about getting a beer (or 3) with lunch knowing others can't. Though I haven't had any in the last 3 weeks. But once I get closer to the goal weight I'll get back to having some fun.
2. Lunch with a good looking girl. I've been getting closer to this girl recently. It seems like we're becoming pretty decent friends. I enjoy her company a lot. She's always in a good mood, she smiles a ton. And that makes me smile. We've spent the last few Fridays sitting and talking over lunch or while we're just walking around. It's been a blast getting to know her, hope it continues for a long time to come.
3. Shopping. I enjoy shopping, though not just for the fuck of it. I don't have any problem going to the mall, unless I'm just going to wander around. My version of shopping is easy. Get in with a game plan. Buy or not buy depending on what I find. Leave. It's easy. I won't go wander around aimlessly just looking at stuff.
4. Getting everything done before the weekend starts. I know technically it started at 12:00 when I punched out, but it feels like a freebie. So far I've been able to get all of the stupid running around done before 5 on Friday that I would have done on Saturday. Which leaves my weekends wide open to nothing but pure fun. And there's typically less people out on Friday so I don't have to deal with nearly as many stupid people.
5. The beach. Nothing says fun like killing a few hours in the sand and water. And getting out there before it gets crowed is a huge plus.
And so far on the agenda for the rest of the summer's Fridays. Cookouts, lunches with friends, trips out of town and a ton of various fun. So bring it on summer, I'm already ready already!!
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Just cause I can't stop listening to this album...
"Little Hell"
What if I can't be all that you need me to be
We've got a good thing going, we have some promises to keep
But my addiction it can be such a detriment
Please believe in this my dear, I am more than penitent
What if everything’s just the way that it will be
Could it be that I am meant to cause you all this grief
My war ships are lying off the coast of your delicate heart
And my aim is steady and true as it's been right from the start
There's a degree of difficulty in dealing with me
From my haunted past comes a daunting task of living through memories.
If we could just hang a mirror on the bedroom wall, stare into the past and forget it all
So when we leave it'll be a quick midnight escape
We'll disconnect ourselves from all of yesterday
I'll dig for water and fashion our very own wishing well
Then we'll throw our coins down hoping to rid of us of this little hell
There's a degree of difficulty in dealing with me
From my haunted past comes a daunting task of living through memories.
If we could just hang a mirror on the bedroom wall, stare into the past and forget it all
Will we get out of this little hell
Will we get out of this little hell
Will we get out of this little hell
Will we get out of this little hell
What if I can't be all that you need me to be
We've got a good thing going, we have some promises to keep
But my addiction it can be such a detriment
Please believe in this my dear, I am more than penitent
What if everything’s just the way that it will be
Could it be that I am meant to cause you all this grief
My war ships are lying off the coast of your delicate heart
And my aim is steady and true as it's been right from the start
There's a degree of difficulty in dealing with me
From my haunted past comes a daunting task of living through memories.
If we could just hang a mirror on the bedroom wall, stare into the past and forget it all
So when we leave it'll be a quick midnight escape
We'll disconnect ourselves from all of yesterday
I'll dig for water and fashion our very own wishing well
Then we'll throw our coins down hoping to rid of us of this little hell
There's a degree of difficulty in dealing with me
From my haunted past comes a daunting task of living through memories.
If we could just hang a mirror on the bedroom wall, stare into the past and forget it all
Will we get out of this little hell
Will we get out of this little hell
Will we get out of this little hell
Will we get out of this little hell
Sunday, June 12, 2011
Back in the saddle again...
Yet again it's been a hot minute. Time to stop the bullshitting and get back to it. But you know how it goes, time is in heavy demand. Looks like everything is starting to get into a nice summer rhythm so I should be able to get back into the stable routine.
So what's been going on? Nothing amazing, just staying constantly busy and moving forward. The only thing I've been admittedly slack on are the work outs. Nothing like putting 9 pounds on in 2 months to get you fully motivated. It's something I'd been putting off, hoping I could do it my way, but it's that time. The D word. Diet. My work in the gym has been good, when I'm there. But I have been eating what ever I want. And drinking most weekends. Well, I've got a couple more hours left to enjoy life. Starting at midnight, no more soda or beer. And I'm headed back to eating way better. Zero fast food, cutting the intake down again to about 1800 calories a day. Plus going back to 2 workouts a day, 5 days a week with 1 long workout on the weekend. So heres a toast to the next couple of months of being miserable. I know it'll be worth it, I should be slightly less than 3 months away from my goal weight.
Well, that's all the time I have for this evening. It's about time for a crappy movie with Nick. I do love the routine!
So what's been going on? Nothing amazing, just staying constantly busy and moving forward. The only thing I've been admittedly slack on are the work outs. Nothing like putting 9 pounds on in 2 months to get you fully motivated. It's something I'd been putting off, hoping I could do it my way, but it's that time. The D word. Diet. My work in the gym has been good, when I'm there. But I have been eating what ever I want. And drinking most weekends. Well, I've got a couple more hours left to enjoy life. Starting at midnight, no more soda or beer. And I'm headed back to eating way better. Zero fast food, cutting the intake down again to about 1800 calories a day. Plus going back to 2 workouts a day, 5 days a week with 1 long workout on the weekend. So heres a toast to the next couple of months of being miserable. I know it'll be worth it, I should be slightly less than 3 months away from my goal weight.
Well, that's all the time I have for this evening. It's about time for a crappy movie with Nick. I do love the routine!
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