It's been a hot minute...

So, it's been a hot minute since I've posted on here. The reasoning is because everything has been going really well. It's also been busy already so it's been hard to sit down and keep the thoughts going. Here's a recap.

I've been watching the girls a lot lately. It's been pretty damn fun. They may argue but most of the time they're well behaved and we manage to have some fun before bed time.

We've been to the beach a few times already this year. Now that the weather is staying about perfect, I hope to go more before it just gets too hot. Nothing wrong with girls in bikinis to say the least.

John's bachelor party in town was a ton of fun. And a very late night. Can't shed the details on here since this is mostly PG. Though I will say the strippers didn't hit him with the belts nearly as hard as we wanted.

The Johniffer wedding was just the other day. It was a damn beautiful day and it seemed like everyone had a blast. I know I had a ton of fun and felt honored to be a part of it. And again, a HEAVY drinking day. All of them back to back lately hasn't helped the weight loss at all. Time to really buckle down again.

I've been making new friends lately which is always good. Though I've had to kick a few people out of my life about the same time because I can't handle them anymore. In recent months I've been really happy. A couple of crappy days here and there but really very happy. I just can't handle people's crap anymore. I work hard to clean up my own stuff, I'm so very tired of hearing people spew the same crap over and over again. Oh well, as always it's their loss.

And on top of the new friends I've been getting closer with a couple of old ones. Not old in years, we're all about the same age. But I've known them for a long while and never imagined any of us would be getting closer like we have.

So, that's the quick recap. I'll try to fill you in more later. Time for some fun though.

Welcome Fall!!!

I'm sure the timing on this one is going to seem a bit odd, given the fact that it's warm and muggy today.  But I for one am really excited that Fall is starting to make an appearance.  It's my favorite season.  I love living in jeans and a sweatshirt.  It's the one thing I miss about living up north.  Apple picking was always a giant production, and a little bit of a pain in the ass, but still totally worth it.  There's not much better than warm apple crisp and vanilla ice cream on a fall day.  And the change in seasons is one of the things I think I'm missing out on.  I'm never going to be a tourist and go back for the "leaf peeping" and all that crap.  But maybe next year, if I do head back up, I head to Maine in the fall instead of mud season like I have in the past.  So welcome Fall!  I've missed you.  And thanks for bringing back football season too!

Nothing like wishing you had something to say.

Things are a little slow right now, so I'm going to take this opportunity to just start rambling.  Things have been going pretty well in recent weeks.  There has been some drama, but that's all behind me now.  I do feel like I'm doing a better job of focusing on the positive stuff and dumping the negative stuff as quickly as it shows up.  It's football season, something I've been waiting for since the last day of last season.  There really isn't anything like all of us getting together pretty much every Saturday for the games.  With 3 tv's going, and the booze flowing, hilarity almost always ensue.  Thought the vibe this year is a little different.  Last season the ladies were pregnant.  This season, there are kids everywhere.  It's changed the tone a bit, but it's still a great way to kill pretty much an entire day.

Ok, that managed to kill just a couple of minutes.  I'm going to go get some actual work done real quick then come back to it.  Maybe then I'll actually have something to say.

Not quite to plan

There's just something to be said about walking up to the fork in the road and intentionally choosing the harder path.  I'm not going to sit here and tell you that I could clearly see both ends of the fork.  I had an idea as to where each path would lead me, but the bends in the road make it harder to be sure.  So, I took the road that led to the destination I want to arrive at.  I know for a fact this road is way more difficult.  But the "what if I didn't ever try" factor was just too damn high to pass up.  The potential reward is so worth the trip.  I've taken a couple of bumps so far.  Nothing too severe, no broken bones yet.  But there's this feeling that when you choose the path, you also choose how the road goes.  At least with me there was.  Like, I knew how hard it would be, but it's all OK.  It's on my terms.  It's my version of manageable.  But then life turns around as you get complacent and lets you know that it's never on your terms.  So, with a new bruise I pick myself up, dust myself off and get back on the path.  Cause I think I can almost see the end.  And it's a better ending than I originally pictured.

23 August 2011

Cause that's the best thing I can think of to start this.  There have been a ton of things going on in my life the last couple of weeks.  But nothing I'm going to sit here and share.  Which is odd.  Normally I'm all about sharing my experiences.  Minus the couple of stupid arguments, it's been all so far beyond go I don't know how to describe it. 

As planned, 2011 has been a big year.  And continues to move in that direction.  The housing situation has pretty much fully resolved itself.  I knew that was going to take some time.  I'm still in a holding pattern for a bit longer, but may finally be within my reach. 

I've made hugely positive changes in my life.  I've eliminated the people that create drama.  I've been supportive of friends, and tried to be a good friend to the people I care about, but have also started looking out for myself.  And that never happened before. 

I'm not stressed anymore.  Well, not like I used to be.  I'm happy.  And I credit a large part of that happiness to a great woman.  Her smile and attitude have had a large impact on me.  I can't help but smile her when I see her.  And we've been spending a lot of our free time together.  And for the first time in a long time, I see a future with this girl.  And she sees something very similar.  While the whole situation may be complicated, and not something I ever saw myself in, I have a good feeling it's all going to work out just fine.

An amazing feeling

So many of my friends have talked to me in the past about knowing when they met "the one."  And I've always written those conversations off as great stories but just not practical to the real world anymore.  Well in recent months those thoughts have changed. 

It's been awhile since I met her.  Easily 8 months.  I'd noticed her from afar for a long time.  And finally I grew the balls necessary to strike up a conversation.  Since then it's been nothing but good times.  We've hung out a fair amount.  Had a ton of serious conversations.  Had more stupid and silly ones.  There are so many things I could say about this girl that are amazing.  But most importantly to me right now is the way she makes me feel.  I can honestly say I've never felt this good.  Or this happy.  She's a damn amazing woman.  And if this is the feeling you were all talking about before, you should have described it as such.  There's nothing I won't do to spend time with her.  There's nothing I won't do to keep this feeling alive. 

She knows who she is.  She knows I'm crazy about her.  And every day that I am lucky enough to know her I'm going to treat her as amazingly as she's treated me.

Jealousy

So since I'm not a jealous person by nature, I would really like someone to explain to me what the hell would cause a normal person to flip out over something simple.  I have my own hang ups about really various stuff, but you can't try and control someones every actions and imagine that they'll respect you.  I'm insecure, but being an asshole just because of that insecurity has never crossed my mind.  I just don't get it, and I see it all the time.  So please, someone please explain...