The new Me?

So far it's working well. There have been a couple speed bumps, nothing too major. I'm hopeful that after a couple months I won't have to try and force the attitude change. As we all know, change is tough. I'm trying to overwrite 3+ years of of second guessing and overthinking every single action. The confidence level is increasing. That's been a huge plus. I'm still not where I want to be in the end but I'm liking the progress. I've still got areas to work on. I'm sure I always will. I'll be glad when the holidays are over and work isn't so bad. It's not busy this week like it was last week, but now too many people's stress level is making my days seem longer. I'm curious and optimistic about the days to come.

The real you?

That's the question of the moment. Who is the real you? If who you think you are as a person is totally different from your friend's views, then who is right? I took a lot of time after the divorce to try and figure myself out. The adjectives I'd use to describe myself and who I want to be don't seem to line up with the one's my friends have used. And it seems that everyone thinks your friends know you best. It sounds like ones perception of oneself is tainted by the fact that you're supposed to like you. So when someone says, "you're an asshole" you tell them you're not. When in fact you are. I've always been hard on myself. But closer to fair I hope. I know some of my strengths and all of my weaknesses. But to find out that I'm out in left field on who I think I am in comparison to my friends views is tough. This whole time, maybe I've been the problem that I thought others were. This next week should be interesting. I guess it's time to go back to the drawing board again.

The day after

Florida lost, Tebow cried on national television. While I haven't been following college football for years like so many of my friends, that sight alone made me smile. While I'm sure he really is the stand-up guy that he comes across as I'm just so sick of hearing his name. I'll be thankful for next season when he's gone and we can go back to hearing about the team again instead of just the man. Thanks again to Dana for letting us post up at the Nutter household. Time to eat and get my workout in.

Despite the rain

Thanks to the rainstorm early this morning I finally slept like a champ. It's been something odd for me but as I've gotten older I seem to sleep so much better during a storm. Never used to be that way. And despite the rain, the drive in wasn't terrible and I had another good day today. It's been real nice to finally string some good ones together. Left work a bit early due to the end of the world storm that's coming. Wanted to get back to my side of town before the sky fell out. Got a great workout in with Blake and had some more quality time chatting with Diane. Meat for dinner, and 2 hours of The Ultimate Fighter tonight. I can only think of a couple of ways today could've gotten any better.

Good days

The last couple of days have been really treating me well. I'm really working on taking that whole positive mental attitude thing pretty seriously. It's been good waking up in a good mood. Traffic hasn't been bothering me either. And work has been so much more tolerable. Now I'm quite optimistic that the rest of the week will end just as well. Doesn't hurt that I've got Friday off and could spend the day finishing my Christmas shopping. That's the exciting plan for the day off. A morning workout, Christmas shopping and maybe hanging out with the birthday girl for a bit in the evening. It's something to look forward to. Hope all is well out there for the rest of you. Enjoy that chilly air, breathe it in!