It's been forever and there's so much to say. Well, not really but I'll try and ramble on for a few to help me pass the time.
It's been a decent couple of weeks for me. I started to reconnect with an old friend. I still feel a little weird and know I'm acting a bit off and know she notices it. I'm trying to get back to where we were oh so many months ago. Because of that, I'm feeling a bit of pressure I know I shouldn't. Not from her of course, it's all in my head. I really did miss having her around, pride is a stupid thing sometimes. Hopefully time will get us going in the right direction again.
The group has gotten a bit smaller yet again. While attempting to get myself 100% right I again realize that I try to make too many people happy. Again, the heart is too big and my expectations are never met. Maybe it's because my expectations are too high. If that's the case, let me know and I'll reevaluate my standards. I feel like I should try harder most days. Then I realize that I do try hard and it's not a one way street. That helps and I'm thinking this time this will stick. No more nice words to reel me back in.
And in happier news, I hope I'm making a new friend. We've been emailing back and forth and I think this could be the start of a fun friendship. More to come on this soon I hope.
The last couple of weeks at work have been awful. I dislike so many of the people in that building sometimes. I try not to be a negative person at work. I try not to bring the other people that work with me down. I'm not perfect but I do genuinely try to arrive in a great mood and spread the joy. But unfortunately negative energy spreads faster. Hopefully this trend will stop soon and we can all move along our merry ways.
That's a good start, hope tomorrow I can get the trend going again and go back to having something stupid to say everyday. Goodnite!
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